Suddenly, the frequency of having nightmares has increased a lot. I'm having those one after another, every night, and they even catch me napping and don't let me escape from them. Some of them are just little bit weird, and some of them make me so depressed, and, and, and more. I'm not afraid of at least, but they're so irritating. I hardly sleep in the night, and thinking of having nap is impossible, because I know they won't let me awake.
Sometimes it seems like that I'm practicing dead. In the dream, I can hear what is happening in the real world, can hear car passing on the street, my flatmates phone call, and even the music I have turn on. At the same time, I'm having weird dream. On the boundary between the real world and the nightmare I try to escape from both of them, and there's no place to step. What does this mean to? This situation accelerate the insomnia. Cool. Sleepless nights keep go on and never will end.
Now this is not a problem with insomnia, even when I sleeping, I'm not sleeping actually. Is this caused by my feeling of anxiety which never subside? How would it be solved if I don't know where it is from? Do I need a counselling?
What important is, not the content of those nightmares. I don't care about them at all. This is the matter of having dreams and be awaken at the same time. In the dream I'm always confused because the world where I am is the mixture of my unconsciousness and consciousness. And when I wake up, I am not able to know if I'm in the real world where I belong, or still in my dreams. Still I'm wondering why. Maybe my body doesn't want to waste time so won't let me sleep. Or doesn't want my brain. I may need my head examined.
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